(not) a real friend

i thought he is a real friend.

though we only know each other online, we got our own life, we used to be freely talk about many things. yes, we argued. we used to share. he used to encouraged me in my hardest times in this foreign place and laugh at me when i shared silly things.

for years he laugh at me for being silly and stupid but sometimes i felt that he laugh because he looked down at me. the time has come that i cannot bear more laugh from him. he keep looking down at me. i was really upset and thats the end of our friendship.

nothing remain the same, i cannot pretend to be friendly and warm.

proverbs 12:9
"better to be a nobody and yet have a servant than pretend to be somebody and have no food"

the best way to eat durian ..

today is friday.

i was really tired with the whole week office work, especially these last 2 days with francis, our kinaxis consultant from hongkong. so i asked a friend to join me dinner. we ate japanese food. i love the cold tofu salad they have.

after dinner i decided to buy some durian. i chose a package of $5 durian. my friend said that she did not want to get one package, but maybe will try a bit. then we find a good place to take a seat and continue our talk.

as we talk about dreams, life and its objectives, we started to eat the durian. for me it was the best $5 durian i ever eat. it was soft, smell very good, very sweet with little bit bitter taste because of the alcohol. she agreed with me (though its little too sweet for her) and took more of the durian. i have pity of people who do not like durian.

ppiglet : this durian is good. it is the best durian i ever had.
a friend : no, its not the best. its just taste better since you share it with a friend.
ppiglet : yea, maybe its taste better because i share it with a friend
a friend : for me its the best since i dont pay the durian :p

so the moral of the story is :
durian is good.
durian tastes better when you have a friend to share.
the best durian is when you share it with a friend and no need to pay for the durian.

wakakakakakkakakak

ecclesiastes 2:24-25 says :
"a man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. this too, i see, is from the hand of God, for without Him, who can eat or find enjoyment?"

how are you, if i may know?

"how are you" might be a very simple question you can find anywhere anytime. sometimes we just throw the questions as we walk and never try to stop our steps to get the answer. or we just say it and then continue with our main topics.

we might not really care about the answer. we dont have time to hear the answer. we dont want to know the answer.

it is more like a greetings than a question.

but yesterday was different. someone asked me the question and add the next part which was surprised me and made the "how are you" question seems different.

"how are you?"
"mmm .."
"how are you, if i may know?"

the common everyday question became special that day since the person really wanted to know my answer.

whew .. how a simple person am i. im happy with very simple things happened around me.

psalm 55:22
"cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall"

life is boring?

i never find my life as a boring one.

instead, i always need more more and more time to finish things. i always have things to do. always run out of time. always do more and more things.

vacation + shooting? absolutely!!
rr-kinaxis stuffs? always courious about it
sap-pp and its related things? always want to explore more
shopping? will love to do it if i have time .. and money ..wakakakakakakaka
work with my pictures? will love to do it all the time
spend relax time in *bucks? would be a lovely and luxury thing for me recently :)

life would be bored if i have nothing more to do :(

just realise that my life is too simple .. sigh ..
maybe thats why they said that im weird since i might be 'content' even when i were all alone.


ps. i think im not weird, i just try to make myself busy all the time :p

proverbs 19:23 says :
the fear of the LORD leads to life: then one rests content, untouched by trouble

dunkdunk my cute friend

i call her dunkdunk.

i always become speechless if i think of her. she's a chubby cute girl i met in indf. kind of smaaaaart, funny, friendly, super cuek girl. she also the most straight forward girl i ever met. good command in english (excellent!!). she said to me (about 6 months ago) that she never been in love before and she really wants to be in love. really amazing girl.

time changes everything. tonight she said that now she applied blush on(!) on her cheek. wow .. what a progresss i've been missed. i just wonder if now she wears skirt and high heels :)

hugs ..

luke 6:29 says :
if someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. if someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic.

lemon and i

this picture was a slice of lemon on the bottom of my lemon tea and some pieces of ice blocks left.

i met my good friend last night. it was unexpected because we did not meant to meet. so she bought me a glass of iced lemon tea and we shared about the day. yea, many things happened unexpectedly. unpredictable. sometimes even unwanted.

yellow. so fresh. cold. nice. great. simple. deep .. deep in my squared glass.

job 37:10 says :
the breath of God produces ice, and the broad waters become frozen.

building 5000

it reminds me to my high school building, as known as sman 68 salemba, jakarta :p

my current company building really reminds me to my senior high school building. it has "L" shape, kind of old building. so dont try to compare it with the ariobimo central or even sudirman plaza :p they just like heaven and earth. the building consists of 5 floors and has 2 access : manual (stairs) and lifts (2 big lifts for barang (hmmm.. whats "barang" in english?) and 1 lift for passengers).

the building itself is very tough. last time i saw an unloading process of a huge machine from a container and they lift it to the 3rd floor. the first day i were there, i felt my floor and desk trembled. i said to my colleague: "can you feel that?". "feel what?". i said: "earthquake!". my colleague just smiled. later on i heard a strange sound came from our next room, or another time shredding sound or repairing machine from nowhere, or undefined machine crowds. building 5000 (and other buildings in this industrial park) not only for offices, it also for workshops, machines etc. thats why they made it very tough and ready for "super imposed load".

my favorite place of the building is a corner in 3rd floor, near the wash rooms, which is painted with orange and green. i like the colors, also when you can see the green grass and the tree, just across the street downthere, it reminds me to a peaceful heart of a good friend.

proverbs 18:10
the name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe

cold and hot, under the weather

today i feel not too well.

maybe its because i could not sleep last night. why i could not sleep .. its because i felt not well all evening. hmmm.. what a circle. since i felt weak, headache and tired, i went to sleep early. i took 2 pieces of antangin (to get off the angin) and a paramex (to ease my headache). i was too tired for a "kerokan" or what they called as "kua sa", also last saturday i just "kua sa" my self and i still can see the marks. so i just went to sleep at 9pm, its too early for a ppiglet.

i woke up at 12.47am, felt much better but still got light headache. i saw uncle sam online so i asked him if he had time for some rr (kinaxis rapid response). the answer was YES! wow .. what a very kind guy. so we discuss of some rr issues and i got much from him. he get off at 1.40am.

hmm... what to do next because i still could not sleep. so i wrote something about my good friend. also prepare some rr data cleansing and sent out the emails to some users. also tried to do rr backup (but it failed because i forgot if i shut down my pc the process would be terminated - because the system make a copy to server by using mapping directory which is mapped as my computer's directory. waaaaksss... stupid me). then i tried to sleep. but i woke up every less than an hour.

today i had hot fish soup as my lunch. i wished that the soup will makes me feel better. after that ruili asked us to buy ice cream. i just dont know what to do with my not-well body .. so i bought a piece of red bean ice cream. if my body got a loudspeaker (instead my of mouth -which is in mute mode by me since this morning), i believe it will shout out loud with undefined words. only heaven knows ..

1 corinthians 12:27 says:
now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it.

miss ruili

she came from shanghai, took her master in france, left her boy friend there and here she is ..

her employee number is 8935 when mine is 8936. she works next door, room #03-02 when mine is #03-03. we signed the company offer letter in the same day. "destiny" or "yuen"(hahaha who believe in destiny) allow us to meet :p

i asked her to teach me mandarin, she said ok but we never came to a real mandarin lesson. so bad.

miss ruili : please do me a favor?
ppiglet : sure
miss ruili : can i stay with you thursday night? i need to go to malaysia next day at 6am and pasir ris is too far from kranji.
ppiglet : okie. $100/night
miss ruili : ohh... so expensive. you know i am broke
ppiglet : well.. take it or leave it. nothing is free
miss ruili : ok
miss ruili : also we can start our first mandarin lesson on thursday night
ppiglet : great! (yihaaaaaaa .... finally!)
miss ruili : i will charge you $150/lesson
ppiglet : ??!@#?@$?@$*&^@!!!!! .. (this lady makes me owe her $50!)

anyway nice to know you miss ruili ..

proverbs 27:1 says :
do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth

not important

how do you feel if someone feels that you're not important for him/her?

yea, everybody has their own urgency and need to decide how urgent and important a thing for them. the keyword is "important". i just feel sad if someone think that im not important. always there's something else that felt more important than me.

not my aim to point somebody here. just want to share that being an unimportant person is sad. being unrecognized and unimportant might be hurt, its makes us feel lost in a crowd. God, help me to treat them nicely and important in my life. because being treat as unimportant just give me a not nice feeling.

zechariah 2:8 says :
for this is what the LORD Almighty says: "after he has honored me and has sent me against the nations that have plundered you—for whoever touches you touches the apple of His eye.."

lanting

i like this kind of snack very much.

its an old style and traditional snack. i knew it since i was a little kid. as far as i know lanting is originally came from central part of java island. its made of tapioka flour, cripsy with spicy flavour. later on i found lanting with cheese, sweet-hot, corn or even barbeque flavor, but my favorite one will always garlic flavor.

before i came here i was in semarang for about 3 weeks and i brought home a lot package of lanting. i also bring along with me a package of lanting here. hmmm.. alas the lanting last very soon even i eat it only a little everytime i wanted (the problem is .. i want it most of the time hahaha).

oh.. my lanting is almost finish. yesterday i meet mas totok online, he is my old college friend. i told him that i would miss my lanting because now its only a few pieces left. and guess what??

mas totok : hei, give your home address, i will send you some lanting soon. what else do you want? geplak (geplak is another traditional food from jogja city, made from young coconut, taste very sweet and comes in colors)?
me : are you sure?
mas totok : im serious. a big brother should be very kind to his little sister
me : waaa.. you're so niceeeeeee...

so .. im waiting here for my coming lanting :) i will let you know if i already got the package. hahaha

john 4:34 says :
"My food," said Jesus, "is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work."

win win solution for us

many friends asked me about what my assignment in the new company.

i came with development background, and the last one year i joined with logistic team as functional. i did development with vb, vba, abap/4 for both sap and apo, c/al certified developer (hahaha..) for ms. navision and used crystal report as reporting tools.

even i know about “many” things, seems that i should not stop here. here they assign me as kinaxis rapid response, sap-pp and sharepoint functional instead of a developer. hmmm.. want to know whats kinaxis rapid response and sharepoint? then kindly search them through google .. hehehe im too lazy to explain it here.

why? why not being a developer? why not keep my track in development area? ah.. you can ask my bosses since i have more than one boss, especially ask the Big Boss. but for me its not a problem at all :). my previous boss DaY knows that i get bored easily and fastly. in the other hand i always enjoy new things and have enough curiousity to find more and more. just wonder if Huan Leong knows (about my getting bored and my couriousity). btw my fake bro said that i have good appetite and digest everything well. hahahaha.. so it’s a win win solution for all of us :)

1 kings 4:28-30 says:
God gave solomon wisdom and very great insight, and a breadth of understanding as measureless as the sand on the seashore.

take it easy and let it go ..

i know King for about 4 years. we're good friends. we talked and share our thoughts about many things but we did not talk about private or personal stuffs. last night i just decided that i better leave King without my couriousity and silly talk and questions anymore.

this morning my brother said that bitter people keep details in their mind. they keep add more and more details, more and more hatred .. until one day, he/she cannot bear more and everything will blast with no mercy. (ahh.. sorry about my bad english, i hope you know what i mean). the problem is, the explosion will affect innocent people around them.

King, why not take it easy and let it go? all the past, all the bad memories, forgive the one who treat you badly. dont make your heart get bitter and bitter. release yourself and be free. i will miss our lunch time chat .. and more than that. faceless, thoughtless, brainless, souless, mindless King .. where could i find the king? i wish you all the best.

psalm 34:17-19 says :
the righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.
the LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
a righteous man may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all;

unreal feeling

why chatting is interesting?

i found many things in chatting online. learnt many things also. that world not always clean and honest. that nice nick names could not always be trusted. that there are some sincere people among those jurk and bad people in chat. learnt how to write unproper english and find new vocabs and terms. learnt how the people live in the other part of the world. learnt how to become more patient and tolerance toward others. learn from the stranger how they live, culture and how they face their life and how they fix the problems.

ever heard about girls who want money from their chat mates? or .. ever heard guys who always act crazy? or you might find a vice president of a security company in hongkong, a humble, honest, busy and smart guy who send you a postcard from his typical wet country of ireland? or you might find another guy, an agency leader who always enjoy working and analysis, and what's in his mind is always his business, sales, goals and quota, either day or night, nothing else, who always has wise solution for every problem. or you might find a scientist who work as english teacher and teach you many things about chinese people and culture, who feel that he is a chinese (who) trapped in a white man body.


but how do you believe your feeling on the net?

a wise lesson i got is : do not rely too much on the net friends. it is good to live in a fantasy world (read : net) in the security of anonymity, and long distance and convenience. feel how free you can express yourself and be yourself. share about everything you want to and exchange ideas with some strangers.

as two souls keep communicate with each other, feeling may grow, liking may grow. but the chance of success is too slim. it is a fantasy world. also ldr (long distance relationship) is dangerous and impractical. chances of success is rather slim and be down to earth. do show care and concern for every body but no feelings. if you find someone interesting and care for you, it is normal but some people may react differently. they may interpret it as feelings .. for him or her ..

one thing you must remember is not to believe your feeling on the net. because all those feeling were fake and unreal .. until you meet him/her and use your 5 senses to proof that your feeling is real :)

so in the mean time, just be friends and nothing feeling attached :)

my special thanks to niall, t-bone and leonard my dear fake brother


proverbs 22:1 says :
a good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold.

what grandpa tye said about me

. have good memory . sincere . very generous . very straight forwards (means frank, direct, speak your mind, say what you feel) . have a very strong character (strong means aggressive, positive, determined, strong will power in your personality, independent) . really inquisitive . outspoken person . outgoing . friendly and very honest .

. have a very romantic heart . rather a sensitive lady . easily fall into trap of emotion . easily get emotionally involved . your mood changes like the cloud in the sky . low EQ . so smart in retorting me ...

. a very keen photographer . know how to appreciate beauty and captured every moment of God’s work in nature on picture . really multi talented . good at photography, handicraft and computer . very artistic . very scenic . more art inclined .

. a super woman . smart lady . special . neither pretty nor ugly . an intelligent lady . a nice girl . definitely not a bad one .

. very philosophical too . lots of food for thought .

ps.
thanks grandpa tye, for being a great friend and being very honest to me

psalm 139:13 says :
for You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother's womb.
i praise You because i am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, i know that full well.

enough..stop.....

enough..stop.....i dont think he deserves to be in our topic now ..

that what was my fake brother told me toninght when we chat about my ex bf. how many times i spent my time to think of undeserve things? how many times i let myself do talk and share about unimportant topics? how many times i spent my money for such kind of undeserve stuffs? i could do much much more if i can utilize myself well. i need to make most of my time, resources and money. learn to spend them more wisely.

my fake brother's words keep on my mind until now:
"enough .. stop .. "

ooooh... see the differences between my fake brother and i? so sad :(


whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him

get closer to our world

few years ago one of my friend pett always use his cellphone for internet connection. it was 2004 so the internet connection through cellphone is not as cheap as today. i just wondered why he was not careful with his cellphone bills. he said that it was not a wasting cos his point was effectivenes in his limited time. he could get into his business anywhere and anytime he wanted to. his "extravagant" way of life really surprised me.

but lately i just realise that sometimes all what we need was a reliable simple stuff with a lot of capabilities. people need to get connected with other people/the world. you may called the stuff as cellphones or pda or laptop or anything you name it. im not too interested with those kind of tehcnologies, however technologies bring us closer to our world even distance separated us. even the price might be higner than the normal price.

thanks for matrix and my old sony ericsson. thanks for indosat 3g and my huge vodafone modem. thank you for techy guys outthere to make all things possible :)

i thank my God every time i remember you

about leo

i have a good friend called as leo.

the funny things between us is that we draw a line between us the first time we know each other. as two souls keep communicate with each other, feeling may grow, liking may grow. we promised to keep ourself as mystery, never exchange personal data and keep chatting. he asked me to treat him as "brother" but in the same time he said that he doesnt believe in brother sister relationship between two non blooded related persons, only love relationship between two persons of opposite sex.. if they are very close...
hahahahahaha he's so funny!

many many times he only show himself up just to say hello then disapear for days. yea, he'a a busy leader and a good businessman who always busy. he always think of his business performance. thought it was his bad manner not to give prior notice before he ended our chat but then i know that he's REALLY a busy man. hahaha .. sorry brother :)

you might think that he is "crazy" and plin-plan (inconsistent). oops, he's not crazy at all. he's the most wise and honest chat friend i ever met. he's smart, cool and VERY honest. he tried to end our friendship twice cos we have different level of thinking. he's not match with me at all. emotionally, he's a well developed man, on the other hand im a very undiscipline, straight forward, no certain goals in life, childish etc..etc.. (so it must be pain for him to deal with a ppiglet)

wow. great leo, ah? yea. great him and poor ppiglet :(


a friend loves at all times,and a brother is born for adversity

feb 02 2008
geeeeezzzz... before this i never know that leo is your real name. i thought leo was only a nick :p