Thursday, September 25, 2008

why everybody is leaving?


why everybody is leaving?

my colleague sharmila left the company last august 8
my previous house mate vrushali left for india this august 30
my good friend ruili left for france sept 9
my lunch mate yong qiang will leave for new jersey this oct 8

why everybody is leaving?
it just a matter of time and everybody will leave ..

ezekiel 39:28 says :
"then they will know that I am the LORD their God, for though I sent them into exile among the nations, I will gather them to their own land, not leaving any behind"

home to stay


its been about 7 months i live here.

one of the things i need to find is a church to attend. by default im a baptist :p a very baptist one. thats my personal background. i love love love the hymns and the choir. also the teaching. but when a home does not give you impression of being at home .. then it becomes a mess. yet you become a stranger in your own "home".

i went to many churches here. when my brother was here, we went to "bethany english service" in orchard towers ( since the service is 14.00 as we woke up late, and since i attended bes in kuningan - jakarta for several months before i came here). then we attended sunset service of the "thomson road baptist church", 5 mins walk from novena mrt. then attended "international baptist church" in kings road for couple of times. after my brother went back to jakarta, i tried to attend some other churches that meet my "time" and yet easy to reach.

other churches i tried to attend were :
* city harvest church in jurong west. so full with young people. so energic and dynamic.
* community of praise baptist church in outram road but always missed the service :p (once i was late, the next time i was there but they had outdoor sunday service that time.
* faith community baptist church in max pavilion, s'pore expo, just like chc, fcbc is full of young people with thirst of knowing God, big, they make full of latest modern facilities. and you got many exhibition events to visit after church, just in the next expo pavilions!
* ang mo kio methodist church, just across my apartement.
* st. peter churh or something in outram road, a chatolic mass. i was late (again!) and hard to find a seat because so many people were there!
* st. andrews chatolic church, next to the city hall mrt. it was a great "new life" chatolic service. i will never forget the message sent by pastor spencer from haggai institute.

all of those "seeking experience" were not because i was seeking for my "christian identity" but i was just looking for a home to stay. i was looking for a place where i can feel comfortable and welcome.

for this last few weeks i just found my new home. tough i do not know anyone there, i just feel that im not a stranger in that new place. and the most important is that i can get what i need : powerful words to strengthen my tired spirit and annointed messages that give me courages to live my days.

cornerstone community church is not as big as fcbc or chc but it has the same spirit and passion to make the fullest of "modern" living. there's nothing wrong with any other churches i ever/never attended. the difference is that i feel home in cornerstone :)

psalm 27:4 says :
"one thing i ask of the LORD, this is what i seek: that i may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple"

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

(not) a real friend


i thought he is a real friend.

though we only know each other online, we got our own life, we used to be freely talk about many things. yes, we argued. we used to share. he used to encouraged me in my hardest times in this foreign place and laugh at me when i shared silly things.

for years he laugh at me for being silly and stupid but sometimes i felt that he laugh because he looked down at me. the time has come that i cannot bear more laugh from him. he keep looking down at me. i was really upset and thats the end of our friendship.

nothing remain the same, i cannot pretend to be friendly and warm.

proverbs 12:9
"better to be a nobody and yet have a servant than pretend to be somebody and have no food"