(not) a real friend

i thought he is a real friend.

though we only know each other online, we got our own life, we used to be freely talk about many things. yes, we argued. we used to share. he used to encouraged me in my hardest times in this foreign place and laugh at me when i shared silly things.

for years he laugh at me for being silly and stupid but sometimes i felt that he laugh because he looked down at me. the time has come that i cannot bear more laugh from him. he keep looking down at me. i was really upset and thats the end of our friendship.

nothing remain the same, i cannot pretend to be friendly and warm.

proverbs 12:9
"better to be a nobody and yet have a servant than pretend to be somebody and have no food"